my advice for how to be happy in life…

EAT CAKE!

cake

haha today we had an office birthday, which meant wonderfully delicious ice cream cake!!! I know I had you all excited to hear about some magic formula for how to be happy in life…but I think that eating cake is one step in the right direction! Definitely improved my afternoon!

It is also my wonderful mother’s birthday today…and so that means more cake later!!! I also want to take a moment to wish my momma a very happy birthday! She has been the one person who always stayed by my side and she continues to be my role model and best friend to this day! Love you mommmmyyy!!

pic of mom

Damn..she was a cutie patootie in her day! Wait, scratch that…she still is! haha

Anyways, on to my workouts and eats for last night and today!

Last night I went to spin class with my sissy..and though the music was interesting…to say the least (think drum beat rhythms that made you feel like you were being chased through the jungle by a leopard….I know I have an active imagination haha) but the workout was great! And I left a sweaty mess, which is always a good thing after a workout!

Dinner last night was a sweet potato & some sautéed broccoli…

I simply washed the sweet potato, poked some holes in it, then microwaved it for 4 minutes on high…topped it with some coconut butter, salt, and cinnamon! It was so good!! And quick…definitely need to make that more often! On the side was broccoli that I cooked in 1 tsp. coconut oil and topped with salt/pepper/& paprika!

tuesday dinner

I also got yogurtland with a friend after dinner, so that’s why my meal wasn’t ginormous!

This morning I hit up the gym since I knew I had to be home early for momma’s bday dinner!

I did 41 minutes on the treadmill…I will post the workout tomorrow because it was a good hill climb/interval workout that has you build on speed and incline as the workout progressed!

wednesday morning workout

Breakfast this morning was a yogurt & sandwich thin topped with cream cheese and orange marmalade..my favoriteeeee!!!

yogurt 2

toast whole

yogurt 1

toast half

Very good and filling breakfast!

Then, lunch today was a sort of “bistro box” if you will that consisted of snap peas, carrots, grape tomatoes, hummus, cheese, pita bread, and cashews! This is a great idea because it packs a lot of variety, protein, and staying power for sure!

wednesday lunch

wednesday lunch carrot closeup

 

wednesday lunch pea closeup

Alrighty folks, that concludes my recent activities!

My plan for the gym tomorrow is going to be something like 20 min. on stairclimber, 15 min. elliptical work, & 10 min. treadmill…followed by some squats & arms!

I will give you the detailed workout tomorrow (and also post today’s treadmill workout!). Hope everyone has nice Wednesday evenings!!! Talk to you all soon 🙂

And remember…cake=happiness 🙂

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my problems drinking water…

ok let me get this minor rant out…

water bottle

So, I have been trying to drink more agua lately because I hear it’s good for you and I know I don’t drink enough and ya…so I go out and buy myself a nice water bottle and have been hitting that thing like nobody’s business! I’m slurpin’ all day long, but then…problems occur!

I have to pee like every 10 minutes! It’s insane! I don’t know if I have some type of small blatter or something, but it’s getting ridiculous! Maybe it’s a mind thing now haha but I need advice…how do all you water drinkers manage not to spend the whole day peeing?! Or do you just adjust to have to use the restroom frequently? Fill me in because I am in such a dilemma…to drink and pee or not to drink and to be dehydrated?! What’s a girl to do! haha

 

Anyways, on to lunch today…to start I had an unpictured salad (I ate that thing in like 2 minutes flat), it was leftover from the other night at dinner and had apple, dried cherries, sharp white cheddar cheese, and pistachio meat..I topped it with a squeeze of lemon as my dressing.

Then, I also had a sandwich with a spread of Brie Cheese (comes in prepackaged wedges courtesy of Trader Joes), cut up apple slices, cinnamon, and honey..it was super yummy and kept me full all afternoon!

tuesday lunch

Now, on to my workout…..SPIN CLASS! I am going with my sis..a little nervous because it kicks my butt! But should be a good workout and nice to switch it up!

I will see you all tomorrow, have a nice evening everyone 🙂

things i am loving right now!

Good morning slash afternoon everybody! First let me start off with a quick recap of my workout and dinner last night, which was super delish!

Workout went well! I pushed my self a little harder on my planned run where instead of running for 4 minute intervals I made those 6 minute intevals and then broke up the next 4 min. incline walk into 2 min. hard incline and then 2 min. recovery incline!

My final run breakdown looked like this…

monday workout

When I got home I packed my breakfast/lunch/snacks for today and then got to work on an easy dinner!

Since I am trying to use up groceries/leftovers before they go bad I recycled my quinoa caprese meal idea, but added in a chicken sausage for some added protein & staying power! The added meat component gave the dish a lot more sustenance and I thoroughly enjoyed it…

monday dinner main

Again all you do for this dish is take about 1/2 c. cooked quinoa (mine was leftover from din on Sunday), cut up a handful of grape tomatoes, some basil, & mozzarella cheese, then I cooked the sausage on the stovetop in 1 tbsp. coconut oil and added everything together in a bowl!

Super quick, easy, fresh, and delicious meal!

For “dessert” I had an orange..I am not usually one for having fruit for dessert, but we didn’t have anything sweet in our house really..so an orange had to make do 😦

monday dinner orange

Healthy, but certainly not chocolate that’s for sure!

Anyways, after dinner my family watched the Duck’s hockey game against the San Jose Sharks, we are big Ducks fans haha and well they got their butts kicked to the Sharks and it was a sad night for all in the Kennedy clan 😦

PS my fam is super big on hockey so we watch it all the time! I am pretty much up on all the stats and it is one of the only professional sports I watch on the reg! It’s just so good…fast paced….fights…cute hockey players…what’s not to like!

Next up…breakfast this morning! I finished my jar of cookie butter yesterday, and that only meant one things…overnight oats in a jar!!!

tuesday breakfast outside

Outside it looks like a normal jar of cookie butter…BUT inside it’s my most favorite breakfast in the world!!!

tuesday breakfast close up

I added 1/2 c. rolled oats, 1 6 oz. container of Trader Joe’s Honey Greek Yogurt, 1/2 tsp. chia seeds, dash of vanilla almond milk, cinnamon, and apple slices…in the morning I mixed it up and added a bit more milk/a dash of sunbutter and was thoroughly happy with my little concoction and the return of this breakfast beauty!

Ok, now on to things that are making me happy right now…let’s do it list style because that makes thing super easy to read 🙂

  1. Daylight Savings Time- I mean nothing is better than getting off work, going to the gym, and still having a tad bit of daylight left once my whole day is over! Seriously..makes me so happy!
  2. Spring Weather- There is something about Spring time that is just so wonderful! Right now it is starting to warm up, baseball season has begun, the smell of fresh grass and blooming flowers delights your nostrils, afternoon walks get more appealing by the day…it’s the down right best time of year!
  3. Easter!!!- I LOVE EASTER! There is something about wearing a nice sundress, going to mass with my family, eating a yummy brunch, and enjoying season candy like Peeps and Jelly Beans that is absolutely wonderful!
  4. 30 Rock- My obsession with this show is getting a little out of hand! I didn’t watch it really when it was on air, but recently discovered it on netflix and decided to give it a whirl! Wow is all I can say…it’s so freaking hilarious! It’s kind of a very particular type of humor, but it makes me crack up every time I watch it..gotta love Tina Fey!
  5. Interval Workouts- My latest obsession has been doing intervals on the treadmill…they have been the best way for me to increase my running mileage and I seriously sweat like no other when I finish them! Also, adding an inclined walk in my intervals seriously has given me great endurance…on my hike this weekend I barely struggled at all on all the major hill climbs! I was super proud of myself 🙂
  6. Jillian Michaels 6 Week 6Pack Abs- I am going to really push myself to do it for 6 weeks and see if I notice a difference! It kicked my butt Sunday, so hopefully with consistency and repetition I will see some results…because let me be honest, I’d love to have a more toned stomach once summer time bathing suit season roles around!
  7. Last, but not least…my new camelback waterbottle! It seriously keeps me sippin’ water ALL DAY LONG! Without it I never wanted to drink water, but now I refill it multiple times a day and keep it with me pretty much at all times! Yay for getting my h20 in on the reg…I gotta say it makes me pee a lot, but I have noticed clearer skin and less frequent headaches..gotta be good signs right 😉

 

Ok, later my peeps! I will be back with lunch and a workout for this afternoon…just a hint that I plan on mixin’ things up today!!! Catch ya on the flip side 🙂

5 things you didn’t know about me…

Before I get to the good stuff…aka 5 odd/quirky yet lovable things about me haha I will share lunch and my workout plan for this evening!!!

Ok, so after breakfast I had a handful of chocolate covered raisins- courtesy of my office kitchen and also a bag of Angie’s Classic Sweet & Salty Popcorn (tastes like kettle corn, but is made with all natural ingredients like popcorn/sunflower oil/ evaporated cane juice/& sea salt..yum!).

Then for lunch I had a salad with butter lettuce/dried cherries/brie cheese/pistachio meat (the inside sans shell)/& Annie’s Raspberry Vinaigrette dressing….

monday lunch salad

On the side I also had a piece of multigrain french bread with orange marmalade spread on top!

monday lunch bread

Yum, nothing better than a piece of fresh bread!! And, orange marmalade is my ultimate favorite jam, so that was an added bonus!

On to my workout plan that I made..I will be doing a run similar to last Monday, which was where I do a 4 min. incline walk, 4 min. jog/run, 2 min. hard incline walk, and then repeat this with added intensity! This treadmill workout is definitely one of my favorites, as it incorporates enough recovery time to be doable and also mixes things up so I never get bored while I do it!

Then, I plan on doing some arms & abs to round out my workout, so we will see how this goes!

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Ok, now on to 5 things about me time! Woo!

  1. I am kind of a low key nerd in that I love school, was valedictorian in high school, and went to UCLA for my undergrad
  2. I have known that I wanted to be a lawyer since I was in 8th grade and have never changed my mind, despite people telling me how hard law school is/ how boring being a lawyer can be haha apparently i am just a boring nerd who is looking forward to law school..what can i do?!
  3. I am the oldest of 4 kids and have a bizarrely close knit family! Ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you how much we all support each other, make each other laugh, and are there for each other! We also are hugely sarcastic and so most of the time we are just making jokes that only we think are funny haha it’s weird, but whatever..i love my fam!
  4. I make BOMB cd’s/playlists! In high school I was always designated to make people cd’s like monthly and I loved it! Some of my friends even tell me that they still listen to mixes I made like over 4 years ago! haha I just have a gift of picking the right placement of songs, so that the playlist always seems to have variety and a nice flow from song to song…I seriously shoulda been a DJ! Screw law school, new life plan! haha just kidding, if only I could support myself on a DJ salary I’d probably be in!
  5. I can’t sleep in! It’s like I am kind of a grandma…I like to be in bed by 10 and I can wake up easily at the crack of dawn! Morning workouts are no prob for me because I honestly don’t mind getting up at 5 am! There is something about the calmness early in the morning that I just love and though sleeping in is nice on the weekends and every once of a while, I am definitely an early bird!

 

Ok everyone! Hopefully you now know a little more about me! If you have any more questions or anything you want to know about me just leave a comment and I will answer your questions!

Hope you all enjoy your evenings and I will see you tomorrow! Adios mis amigos 🙂

spring has sprung! weekend recap!

Hi everyone!

Wow Friday got crazy busy and before I knew it the weekend had already come! Let me start with a quick recap of Friday and then I can move on to the rest of the weekend, which was filled with some super fun outdoorsy time!

First of, Friday lunch…

me at lunch!

A delicious PB & J..made with Ezequial Bread, sunbutter, and raspberry jam! A new take on an old classic 🙂

week 3 friday lunch

On the side I had some multigrain crackers and grapes.

Later that evening I was on mom duty since my parents went to a hockey game and left me in charge of the sibs! Little brother had a football game, so after work I hit up Trader Joes and then immediately took him to his game…

bros football game

It was freeeeezing outside! But luckily my sister and I packed some snacks (grapes & cinnamon toast crunch/life cereal combo), so the game didn’t seem to take too long! Unfortunately his team lost, and he was mad when my sister and I asked who had won..apparently “we weren’t paying close enough attention” to be able to tell..whoops!

When we got back home it was kind of late and my original plan to make everyone salmon burgers was kind of not as appealing. We all kind of wanted something sweet, so I whipped up some smoothies (banana/blueberries/mango/pineapple/spinach/almond milk/plain yogurt) and topped them with some fresh strawberries/coconut/dry cereal/& granola.

friday dinner acai bowls

Yum, perfect as a dinner/dessert combo meal!

Saturday morning my sister and I had planned to take a hike in nearby Laguna Beach, so we got up early and were out the door by 8:30 am! We stopped on the way to get the best scone ever…chocolate orange deliciousness!!! And some coffee for her and veggie juice for me!

We got to Laguna and started our hike by 9:30..check out these gorgeous views…

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Ocean view!

hike canyon pic

Canyon View!

sister hike pic

Sister view! haha

Anyways, the hike was awesome and challenging enough to get us sweating! The weather was perfect…clear, slight breeze, sunny! Everything was going perfectly…until….WE GOT LOST!

So to make a long story short we took this long way back around to what we thought would be where we started, but when we got to the end we were at a completely different parking lot! I started freaking out obviously…especially because you had to pay hourly for parking and we had only 30 minutes to make it back to our car! Not nearly enough time to go back the way we had come! Anyways, after some tears were shed and some mean words were exchanged (whoops, we were kinda freaking out! aka I was!), we finally managed to find our car..thank the Lord!

In the end we ended up laughing about the whole thing, but let’s just say that was a hike we will not be forgetting!

Lunch that day was with a friend who was in town for her spring break and we went out for Mexican food! I got a shrimp taco and a side salad, and also munched on some chips and salsa…it was SO YUMMY! I had almost forgotten about my deep love of all Mexican food!

Then, dinner Sunday night was the salmon burgers I had planned to make the night before, but they weren’t all that good (kinda spongey), so I cooked myself up some kale and had some multigrain bread w/ orange marmalade and a baked sweet potato on the side.

Alright, now on to Sunday!!! Sunday started with a nice breakfast consisting of some homemade banana bread, courtesy of my sis and a yogurt parfait topped with mango and banana!

sunday morning breakfast banana bread

 

There was more to that banana bread, but I snapped this pic after eating like half of one of the loaves! haha

Then, I did a 25 minute yoga dvd and also Level 1 of Jillian Michael’s 6 week abs, which was killer!!! I was sweating like no other after that…and am going to try and do it at least a couple more times this week, because I loved it!

Next, I hit up the local farmer’s market with my sis and got some fresh cara cara oranges, some cherry/apple/pomegranate juice, and some tulips!

We got lunch at Panera (turkey sandwich & garden salad) and then went to Ulta to pick up some essentials (lotion/eye makeup remover/cotton pads).

Dinner was teriyaki salmon, quinoa, and a salad I made that had dried cherries, pistachios, sharp white cheddar pieces, and green apple w/ a homemade vinaigrette!

FINALLY, breakfast this morning was another cereal bowl!

week 4 monday breakfast

Strawberry O’s, blueberries, cashews, vanilla soy milk…yay for mixing things up still!!

Ok, so that is it for the weekend! I will be back later with lunch and workout plan for today!! Talk to ya’ll soon!

it ain’t easy, but it’s worth it.

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Good morning all!

Sooo happy today is Friday! Finally some time to sleep in, read, have coffee while watching the morning news (or if it’s Sunday then watching SNL from the night before!!), go out to breakfast, clean, do laundry,  take afternoon naps, watch hockey, cook yummy food, go hiking, shop!, restock my groceries, do yoga…yada yada yada I could keep going but these seem to be my favorite weekend things to do!

This weekend my sister and I have plans to go for a hike in Laguna Beach, so that should be fun! Hopefully we stick to it, because sometimes we can be lame and decide to stay in our pj’s all day rather than embark on the adventure we had planned! haha but we will see!

Anyways, lets start with last night…check out how nice it was out yesterday!

road pic

This was on my drive home from work…everything just looked so clear and pretty! Plus my favorite time of day is in the late evening like from 4-7 during spring/summer, when the sun starts going down and there is a nice warm breeze and everything just feels calm and serene out! It literally is the best time to go for a swim or take a walk or sit on the porch and enjoy the warm weather and last bit of daylight. Gah, I am so excited for summer to get here!!!

Last night I went to dinner with a friend at a nice restaurant right on the marina. We went right as the sun was setting and we could look our from our table to see the water, boats, and sunset, which made for quite a nice atmosphere! Dinner was a goat cheese & beet salad, fried brie appetizer, and 3 mini sliders (1 short rib, 1 kobe beef, 1 pulled pork, all delicious!).

week 3 thursday dinner

Here is the only pic I remembered to snap…and it’s kind of wimpy since the sliders are pretty much devoured at this point haha but I can assure everything tasted wonderful!

This morning I was able to get up early and attend spin class like I did last week! Once again I got such a great workout and it really helped loosen up my still sore legs (darn you squats!).

week 3 friday spin class

 

Finally, breakfast this morning was a veggie juice to start with again…

week 3 friday juice

I felt like such a little health nut getting my fresh veggie juice after spin class haha look at me go!

When I got home after the gym I had a banana w/small scoop of sunbutter and some vanilla soy milk. Then, at work I had a cereal mix of Special K Vanilla Almond, topped with blackberries/raw cashews/& vanilla soy milk..yum!

week 3 friday breakfast close up

So far it has been a good day and I have been in a very good mood! While I was sitting in spin this morning I just had this moment where I realized how far I have come in my eating disorder recovery and how much better off I am now than I was a year ago!

It is crazy how much things can change if you commit yourself to something. And most of the time the hardest part are the first few days of changing your habits & behaviors. I remember feeling so uncomfortable at first when I started to eat normally and healthfully. However, I eventually came to find that I enjoyed living a healthy lifestyle and now I cannot imagine living any other way!

Hopefully for anyone out there struggling with self-confidence, or an eating disorder, or overeating, or any hard time really I hope you remember that you have the strength to overcome anything. All you have to do is reach inside yourself and find something that will make it worth while for you to make it to a better place. For me it really came down to the fact that I really want to have kids some day and I knew that if I continued to starve myself or purge anything I ate, I would never be able to have a family! For me that was all I needed to make a huge change in my life.

I started reading every book I had on recovery and looked to some of the coping methods I had learned while in an intensive eating disorder recovery program and I began to actually listen to what all of the therapists, doctors, and recovered e.d. sufferers were saying! I am not saying it was easy, but I am saying that I am so much happier now that I ever thought was possible. I feel strong and healthy and happy to be alive, and I hope to share my story and my strength with others who may be suffering and need a person to believe in them.

So, anyone out there if you need someone to listen to you or support you or give you any advice at all…I am here and willing to help!

🙂

squats will be the death of me.

hey everyone! so let me first start with last night’s workout…I did my 40 min. workout that I had planned. Legs were a tad sore, so my incline was sometimes less than I had posted and the last sprints I lowered to 7.0, instead of 7.5 speed. My grand total looked like this…

week 3 wednesday workout

After my time on the treadmill it was time to tackle the squats I had been putting off since Monday!!! I happened to run into my sister while I was there and she said she would do the squats with me because I was feeling kinda embarassed to be doing them on the mats alone (I hate people staring at me and so I think this is the main reason I put off squats for so long!). Anyways, with my handy dandy squat partner in toe I ended up doing all of my planned squats (ended up being like 120 squats in all!!!) and they freaking killed!!! Like I could barely walk after! That shiz was intense!! haha I am seriously blown away and my legs today feel crazy sore! But I will take that as a good thing and hopefully with time squats won’t be as killer!!

Last night for dinner I made some fresh green beans, topped them with marinara sauce, and also boiled some goat cheese & sundried tomato ravioli..but being that I have a love/hate relationship with goat cheese..the ravioli last night ended up being a bust and I instead ate the green beans and like 5 raviolis..it was ok and I guess part of life is trying new things, at least now I know not to buy that type of ravioli again? haha bright side maybe?

Next up is my eats so far this morning..let me start with this gem

week 3 thursday strabucks

I usually take my little brother to school, but today my mom did and so I was able to make a stop at the drive-thru Starbucks, which was awesome! I didn’t even have to step out of the car to enjoy a wonderfully warm latte! #spoiledmuch?

Now on to breakfast…as you all know by now I am addicted to overnight oats and was trying to branch out this week with new breakfast options. I had done well so far, and had even made a yogurt parfait last night to have as breakfast today, but then I went back and made it into overnight oats like 20 minutes later!! The addition of rolled oats, chia seeds, and sunbutter into my yogurt definitely made for one happy camper this morning!!

week 3 thursday breakfast close up

Seriously..I think I have a problem! I just can’t seem to get enough of this beauty of a breakfast!!!

Snack was an apple and some blueberry green tea…

week 3 thursday snack

side note..this apple was ginormous!! Like bigger than a softball!! My little brother knows my love of apples and last night he came home from the store with my mom and was bursting with excitement to show me these HUGE apples he got for us!! haha it is moments like that that seriously make me love that kid!

week 3 thursday tea

And last but not least..even though my legs were a burnin’ I was able to do some elliptical and arm work this morning which ended up looking something like this…

march 21 workout

Okie dokes, well I am off to lunch now! I will post my Thursday “Things to Make Ya’ll Smile” post later!! Enjoy your afternoons everybody 🙂

my 4 essentials to a healthy life.

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I seriously think these are the keys to maintaining a healthy lifestyle! I am on this new kick where I try to drink 8 full glasses of water a day! Do I have to pee a lot…yes! Is it worth it…yes!! I feel more energize, skin seems to be more clear, and helps me stay fuller longer..making me think that a lot of times I was confusing thirst for hunger!

Working out also gives me tons of energy! Working out and being active helps wake me up and allows me to set goals for myself and work hard to achieve them. It helps keep me positive and allows me to get out any pent up anger or aggression as well.

Healthy eating varies person to person…I think it is key to include a variety of different foods in your diet, including as much fresh and unprocessed foods as you can! What helps me is eating lots of fruits, veggies, grains, lean meats, healthy fats, and also allowing myself indulgences like chocolate and ice cream, but within moderation.

Last, sleeping well is key to performing your best. Without adequate sleep I feel groggy and off. Sleep allows us to recharge and maintain focused the following day, so make sure to get your zzz’s!

Alright, on to my lunch today…

week 3 tuesday lunch

Smoked salmon/spinach/& cream cheese on an everything bagelwich.

week 3 tuesday lunch side

Snap peas on the side for a little extra something to keep me full! Fruits and veggies are my go to sides because they sit heavy in my stomach and make my fullness last longer!

On to my workout plan for this evening, which is…

march 19 workout plan

Well, I am off to make myself an afternoon snack..large apple/ large spoonfull of nut butter..check and check! Talk to you all tomorrow 🙂

Staying On Track the Healthy Way

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Hey everybody! So, today has been a good day so far and I wanted to write a little about my journey trying to regain my identity during my recovery from my eating disorder. But first let me fill you in on my workout/dinner/& breakfast!

Workout last night went better than expected! I was feeling kind of crumby as I posted yesterday, but then I had a bagel think & cream cheese, lots of water, and got ready for a hard workout! When I got to the gym I was able to do my 50 min. workout, even going harder than I had planned at some points! I also did my ab routine and saved the squats for today because I was getting tired at that point. I typically get bored at the gym after like an hour, but can make myself stay for like an hour and fifteen or twenty minutes but that’s tops!

week 3 monday workout

After the gym I showered and then prepared myself a super yummy quinoa caprese bowl! I basically took some leftover cooked quinoa and added in fresh mozzarella, tomatoes, basil, and balsamic, mixing everything together for a super yummy dish!

I also snacked on some dark chocolate covered power berries from Trader Joes and some peanut butter/berries while preparing my lunch for today!

Breakfast this morning was a Special K Yogurt Parfait…

week 3 tuesday breakfast

Which was a contained of Trader Joe’s Mango flavored greek yogurt, topped with a scoop of Fage 0% Plain greek yogurt, blueberries, raspberries, blackberries, and some Vanilla Almond Special K cereal for some crunch! I have been trying to branch out and try some different breakfast options, because for the past few weeks I have been all about overnight oats!! haha anyways tomorrow I am thinking of trying out a bagel or oatmeal, so we will see if I can come up with a new fave breakfast option! If anyone has suggestions that are portable or easy to make using just a microwave and/or a toaster oven..let me know!!

Snack this morning was a banana, chocolate chip chewy bar, and vitamin water zero…just in case you were curious as to what my snacks are at work haha

Ok, now to the meat of this post…identity and how to be yourself in a world so full of judgment!

For me, during my years with an eating disorder I became a weird and different version of myself. Since I was consistently isolating myself, lying, and hiding away, I lost all sense of the person I was and the person I wanted to be. I let go of all of my morals and everything that was important to me. I was lying to my friends and family, so therefore they learned to not trust me and eventually even they did not care to be around me. I was hurting myself and then lying to make it seem like things were better than they really were. In all honesty I have never been more fragile, afraid, lonely, and confused as I was during those years.

However, as I have progressed in my recovery I have become more comfortable with the person that I am! I feel like I now know more about my positive and negative character traits and have tried to work on my negative ones to make myself a better person all around. I know I can be impatient, judgmental, a control freak, and sometimes insecure, but the more I try to stay aware of those characteristics, the more likely I am to catch myself when I start to display them.

I now try to be myself and have learnt that if others don’t like who I am, then tough luck for them! I am now more selective about who I am friends with because I have realized that there are only a few people who will really be there for me when the goings get tough! And I would way rather surround myself with people who make me feel good about myself, rather than have tons of people who don’t give a crap about me!

I have come to see that I want to be a person who lives a healthy life and is responsible and fun to be around. I try to help out others as much as I can and do kind things for no reason or without being asked. I try to keep a positive outlook on life and realize that no matter what happens there is always another day and another way to make things better!

If anyone is struggling with finding their identity or want to better themselves I would suggest making a list of qualities you admire in other people and then using that as a guide for yourself. But also remember that you are who you are and sometimes you have to find ways to make your personality work for you. Never be afraid to be who you are because the people who don’t like you are better off not in your life anyways!!

In conclusion, take a second to think about this quote…it really helps me in times when I am feeling down…

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Enjoy and I will be back later with lunch and today’s workout agenda 🙂

weekend recap!

Hey Everyone! Hope you all had great weekends and St.Patty’s days!! I know my weekend was definitely packed…I went beach camping, shopping, got my nails done, cooked, did laundry, went to the store, went out with friends, got brunch with the fam, hit the gym, napped…seriously it was hectic! haha but definitely so much fun and being at work now is super hard after such a fun few days!

So, lets start with Friday night..I went to Trader Joes after work and got groceries for the week…even putting together a grocery list based on some meals that I planned for the week! I will share some of those ideas with you in a bit! Once I stalked up at the store, I came home and prepared a super healthy and delicious dinner for my 2 sisters and I…

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So, basically I got everything out and ready to go before I started cooking… which was

2 boneless wild caught salmon filets

1/2 cup mango salsa

3 tsp. brown sugar

3 tbsp. rice vinegar

3 tbsp. olive oil

1 avocado diced

1 lemon

3 cups kale

1 tbsp. minced ginger

2 cups chicken broth

1 cup quinoa

To prepare the salmon I put the filets into a large ziplock bag and added the salsa, brown sugar, vinegar, and olive oil..I let it sit for about 15 minutes while I let the oven heat up at 350 degrees. I then filled a tray half way with water and put that on the bottom rack and then put the salmon on the top rack where it cooked for 20 minutes. The tray of water helped to keep the salmon super moist!

To prepare the quinoa I let the chicken broth and quinoa come to a boil and then turned the hit down and let it simmer until all of the liquid had absorbed..about 20 minutes in all.

Finally, when the salmon had 5 minutes left I sautéed the kale in 1 tbsp. coconut oil, squeezing half the lemon on top and adding the garlic as well.

Then, I simply spooned everything out and topped with the avocado, making 3 dinner sized portions and 1 lunch sized portion left over!

week 2 friday dinner

Dessert was popcorn and easter candy (aka peeps, robins eggs, etc.), which my sisters and I enjoyed while watching the movie Pitch Perfect! That movie is absolutely hilarious and Fat Amy seriously cracks me up the entire time!! Perfect sister bonding night if you ask me!

week 2 friday snack

Saturday I woke up and had a banana and a luna bar while I got ready to go beach camping! My friend picked me up and we drove down PCH to Dana Point where we spent the day enjoying the nice weather, beach views, and eating delicious food like french toast, eggs, potatoes, pita chips, hummus, carrots, skittles, caprese, chicken sausage links, angus beef burgers, trail mix, rolos, and most importantly s’moores!!!

week 2 saturday smoores

 

As you can see in this pic we took some s’moores risk topping double stuffed oreos with marshmallows, and adding rolos to others, for an untraditional mix on this classic camping food! Lets just say I was stuffed and tired after this awesome day in the sun!

Then, Sunday was obviously St. Patty’s day and my family went to church and then had brunch at a seaside restaurant close to home.

Check out the view we had while we ate…

week 2 sunday brunch

It’s times like this that I realize how lucky I am to live so close to the beach!! I enjoyed an eggbeater omelet with avocado, tomato, and mushrooms, with a side of orange toast (super thick and delicious slightly orange flavored toast, topped with butter and orange marmalade…aka one of the best things I have ever eaten!)

After hitting up the gym and getting my nails done with my sister I took a nap and woke up to enjoy some carrots/cheese/& bread before dinner which was corned beef and cabbage! A truly Irish meal for sure!

This weekend was super fun and filled with so many good times! Though I still feel stuffed today I am trying to get back on track with my eating, enjoying a yogurt parfait for breakfast this morning…

week 3 monday breakfast

1 contained of Blueberry Coconut Milk yogurt, strawberries, blackberries, 2 big spoonfuls of plain greek yogurt, and topped with peanut butter granola..yummy in my tummy!!!

I will be back later to post today’s lunch and plan for my workout this afternoon! Everybody enjoy your morning/afternoons!

family picture

Me with my sister Catherine and brother William after mass super early yesterday morning!!! Gotta love family selfies 🙂