why can’t i make decisions?!

hello all!

so quickie post cause i have like 5 minutes before i have to finish up at work!!!

soooo…dinner from last night was super yummy!

what was in it? 1 chicken/apple sausage link, 4 mini bell peppers,1/2 c. shredded brussel sprouts (from trader joes), 6 mini zucchinis chopped into pieces….sauté everything in 1 tbsp. coconut oil and top with cheese! I used Brie and it was to die for….

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I will post lunch from today tomorrow haha

And I seriously can’t make up my mind about spin or running today?! Why is this so tough??? I think I may flip a coin…seriously though. I am officially a weirdo!

Peace out everyone..talk to you all tomorrow!!

how i eat (primarily) unprocessed foods!

Hey everyone! Before I get into the meat of this post, let me tell you a bit about my evening yesterday and then my workout and breakfast today!

So, last night my family and I went to a HOCKEY GAME! Seriously, if you have never been to a hockey game, you need to go!!! They are so lively and action packed..never a dull moment! I tend to get bored when watching football and baseball, but with hockey the action literally never stops!!!

Anways, here is a pic of my sister and I making “duck faces”, while en route to the ducks game!

hockey game pic

The game was awesome, Anaheim Ducks played the Dallas Stars and our ducks won 5-2!

Anyways, dinner was not the healthiest because it was game food haha but it sure was delicious! I had a hotdog w/ relish, mustard, and onions. Also, had a handful of peanuts, lots & lots of delicious popcorn (think movie theater style), a few Sour Patch Kids, and some hot chocolate…this is kind of ironic considering today I want to talk about how I cut out most unprocessed foods from my diet, but hey every once in a while you gotta give in and indulge a little 😉

Anyways, I was exhausted by the time we got home last night and fell asleep almost as soon as my head hit the pillow!! I thought about snoozing my alarm when it went off at 4:45 this morning, but decided to bite the bullet and get up for my morning workout! I didn’t know how in the mood I would be to run, but I decided to give it a go and actually had tons of energy! The run went by quickly and though when i post my workout it is going to look a tad confusing, in reality it is basically 5 min. incline walk followed by 10 minutes of 1 min. jog/1 min. sprint switch offs (repeat that 2x), then 5 min. recovery walk, 14 min. of increasing incline jogging, and 1 min. cool down..easy peasy!

SPRINTS N HILLS TRADMILL WORKOUT

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So, ya like I said it looks confusing when written out, but it was an awesome workout and let me get in a lot of mileage in not too long of time!

I am trying to up my mileage in hopes of doing a 10K at some point this summer, so I think I am going to try an outdoor run by the ocean this weekend and hopefully get in over 5 miles!

Ok, next on the list is breakfast today..started with a banana and 1/2 a granola bar when I got home from the gym…then once at work I had…oats in a jar!!

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Don’t you love how I captured my meal at different stages of being eaten! haha Anyways,  I did like 1/4 cup rolled oats, dash of vanilla coconut milk, 2 scoops plain greek yogurt, 1 spoonful cocoa, and then topped it this morning with more coconut milk, strawberries/blackberries/blueberries, & a scoop more peanut butter..yum!

Ok…now on to my topic of getting rid of processed foods in your diet. I actually happened to end up doing this by mistake and mainly just by keeping my diet made up mostly of fruits & veggies. Most of my meals center around some concoction of fruits or vegetables and then in the morning I add yogurt/oatmeal/whole grain toast/or nut butter to round out the meal.

Lunch and dinner tend to be more veggie based and usually are a salad or sauteed veggies topped with some type of protein. For lunch I like to add various mixtures of nuts/dried fruit/fresh fruit/chopped veggies/chicken/turkey/tuna/salmon/& a vinegar or oil based dressing.

Dinner tend to be a ton of veggies sauteed in coconut oil and then topped with cheese/& or meat..when i am eating rice or pasta I usually try to get a whole grain version (think whole grain pasta, quinoa, brown rice, etc.) and not too much sauce & salt added on top.

For me, once I started stalking up on fruits and veggies my meals came to center on those items and I stopped needing crackers/chips/croutons/lots of dressing/frozen meals/etc.

I also stick to plain greek yogurt/organic milk/rolled oats (not instant) and most of my breakfast options are pretty basic and fresh.

Once I started making my meals with less processed foods I found that my cravings for coffee and soda also decreased as well!

My diet now feels more rounded out and I am happy to say that the things I do eat fill me up and keep me focused/energized/& strong!

Of course like I said earlier I do indulge every once in a while in snack type foods, but even then I have found that the less I have them the better they taste when I do have them here and there!

Hopefully this helps with anyone trying to get more healthy meals in and let me know if you have any questions!

 

What type of unprocessed meals are your favorite?

Any type of fish with a nice roasted or sautéed veggie side!

Any snack foods that you could NEVER give up, despite how crappy them may be for you!?

Peanut M&Ms, Cheese-Its, & Microwave Popcorn are my guilty pleasures fo’ sho!

5 things you didn’t know about me…

Before I get to the good stuff…aka 5 odd/quirky yet lovable things about me haha I will share lunch and my workout plan for this evening!!!

Ok, so after breakfast I had a handful of chocolate covered raisins- courtesy of my office kitchen and also a bag of Angie’s Classic Sweet & Salty Popcorn (tastes like kettle corn, but is made with all natural ingredients like popcorn/sunflower oil/ evaporated cane juice/& sea salt..yum!).

Then for lunch I had a salad with butter lettuce/dried cherries/brie cheese/pistachio meat (the inside sans shell)/& Annie’s Raspberry Vinaigrette dressing….

monday lunch salad

On the side I also had a piece of multigrain french bread with orange marmalade spread on top!

monday lunch bread

Yum, nothing better than a piece of fresh bread!! And, orange marmalade is my ultimate favorite jam, so that was an added bonus!

On to my workout plan that I made..I will be doing a run similar to last Monday, which was where I do a 4 min. incline walk, 4 min. jog/run, 2 min. hard incline walk, and then repeat this with added intensity! This treadmill workout is definitely one of my favorites, as it incorporates enough recovery time to be doable and also mixes things up so I never get bored while I do it!

Then, I plan on doing some arms & abs to round out my workout, so we will see how this goes!

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Ok, now on to 5 things about me time! Woo!

  1. I am kind of a low key nerd in that I love school, was valedictorian in high school, and went to UCLA for my undergrad
  2. I have known that I wanted to be a lawyer since I was in 8th grade and have never changed my mind, despite people telling me how hard law school is/ how boring being a lawyer can be haha apparently i am just a boring nerd who is looking forward to law school..what can i do?!
  3. I am the oldest of 4 kids and have a bizarrely close knit family! Ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you how much we all support each other, make each other laugh, and are there for each other! We also are hugely sarcastic and so most of the time we are just making jokes that only we think are funny haha it’s weird, but whatever..i love my fam!
  4. I make BOMB cd’s/playlists! In high school I was always designated to make people cd’s like monthly and I loved it! Some of my friends even tell me that they still listen to mixes I made like over 4 years ago! haha I just have a gift of picking the right placement of songs, so that the playlist always seems to have variety and a nice flow from song to song…I seriously shoulda been a DJ! Screw law school, new life plan! haha just kidding, if only I could support myself on a DJ salary I’d probably be in!
  5. I can’t sleep in! It’s like I am kind of a grandma…I like to be in bed by 10 and I can wake up easily at the crack of dawn! Morning workouts are no prob for me because I honestly don’t mind getting up at 5 am! There is something about the calmness early in the morning that I just love and though sleeping in is nice on the weekends and every once of a while, I am definitely an early bird!

 

Ok everyone! Hopefully you now know a little more about me! If you have any more questions or anything you want to know about me just leave a comment and I will answer your questions!

Hope you all enjoy your evenings and I will see you tomorrow! Adios mis amigos 🙂

it ain’t easy, but it’s worth it.

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Good morning all!

Sooo happy today is Friday! Finally some time to sleep in, read, have coffee while watching the morning news (or if it’s Sunday then watching SNL from the night before!!), go out to breakfast, clean, do laundry,  take afternoon naps, watch hockey, cook yummy food, go hiking, shop!, restock my groceries, do yoga…yada yada yada I could keep going but these seem to be my favorite weekend things to do!

This weekend my sister and I have plans to go for a hike in Laguna Beach, so that should be fun! Hopefully we stick to it, because sometimes we can be lame and decide to stay in our pj’s all day rather than embark on the adventure we had planned! haha but we will see!

Anyways, lets start with last night…check out how nice it was out yesterday!

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This was on my drive home from work…everything just looked so clear and pretty! Plus my favorite time of day is in the late evening like from 4-7 during spring/summer, when the sun starts going down and there is a nice warm breeze and everything just feels calm and serene out! It literally is the best time to go for a swim or take a walk or sit on the porch and enjoy the warm weather and last bit of daylight. Gah, I am so excited for summer to get here!!!

Last night I went to dinner with a friend at a nice restaurant right on the marina. We went right as the sun was setting and we could look our from our table to see the water, boats, and sunset, which made for quite a nice atmosphere! Dinner was a goat cheese & beet salad, fried brie appetizer, and 3 mini sliders (1 short rib, 1 kobe beef, 1 pulled pork, all delicious!).

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Here is the only pic I remembered to snap…and it’s kind of wimpy since the sliders are pretty much devoured at this point haha but I can assure everything tasted wonderful!

This morning I was able to get up early and attend spin class like I did last week! Once again I got such a great workout and it really helped loosen up my still sore legs (darn you squats!).

week 3 friday spin class

 

Finally, breakfast this morning was a veggie juice to start with again…

week 3 friday juice

I felt like such a little health nut getting my fresh veggie juice after spin class haha look at me go!

When I got home after the gym I had a banana w/small scoop of sunbutter and some vanilla soy milk. Then, at work I had a cereal mix of Special K Vanilla Almond, topped with blackberries/raw cashews/& vanilla soy milk..yum!

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So far it has been a good day and I have been in a very good mood! While I was sitting in spin this morning I just had this moment where I realized how far I have come in my eating disorder recovery and how much better off I am now than I was a year ago!

It is crazy how much things can change if you commit yourself to something. And most of the time the hardest part are the first few days of changing your habits & behaviors. I remember feeling so uncomfortable at first when I started to eat normally and healthfully. However, I eventually came to find that I enjoyed living a healthy lifestyle and now I cannot imagine living any other way!

Hopefully for anyone out there struggling with self-confidence, or an eating disorder, or overeating, or any hard time really I hope you remember that you have the strength to overcome anything. All you have to do is reach inside yourself and find something that will make it worth while for you to make it to a better place. For me it really came down to the fact that I really want to have kids some day and I knew that if I continued to starve myself or purge anything I ate, I would never be able to have a family! For me that was all I needed to make a huge change in my life.

I started reading every book I had on recovery and looked to some of the coping methods I had learned while in an intensive eating disorder recovery program and I began to actually listen to what all of the therapists, doctors, and recovered e.d. sufferers were saying! I am not saying it was easy, but I am saying that I am so much happier now that I ever thought was possible. I feel strong and healthy and happy to be alive, and I hope to share my story and my strength with others who may be suffering and need a person to believe in them.

So, anyone out there if you need someone to listen to you or support you or give you any advice at all…I am here and willing to help!

🙂

squats will be the death of me.

hey everyone! so let me first start with last night’s workout…I did my 40 min. workout that I had planned. Legs were a tad sore, so my incline was sometimes less than I had posted and the last sprints I lowered to 7.0, instead of 7.5 speed. My grand total looked like this…

week 3 wednesday workout

After my time on the treadmill it was time to tackle the squats I had been putting off since Monday!!! I happened to run into my sister while I was there and she said she would do the squats with me because I was feeling kinda embarassed to be doing them on the mats alone (I hate people staring at me and so I think this is the main reason I put off squats for so long!). Anyways, with my handy dandy squat partner in toe I ended up doing all of my planned squats (ended up being like 120 squats in all!!!) and they freaking killed!!! Like I could barely walk after! That shiz was intense!! haha I am seriously blown away and my legs today feel crazy sore! But I will take that as a good thing and hopefully with time squats won’t be as killer!!

Last night for dinner I made some fresh green beans, topped them with marinara sauce, and also boiled some goat cheese & sundried tomato ravioli..but being that I have a love/hate relationship with goat cheese..the ravioli last night ended up being a bust and I instead ate the green beans and like 5 raviolis..it was ok and I guess part of life is trying new things, at least now I know not to buy that type of ravioli again? haha bright side maybe?

Next up is my eats so far this morning..let me start with this gem

week 3 thursday strabucks

I usually take my little brother to school, but today my mom did and so I was able to make a stop at the drive-thru Starbucks, which was awesome! I didn’t even have to step out of the car to enjoy a wonderfully warm latte! #spoiledmuch?

Now on to breakfast…as you all know by now I am addicted to overnight oats and was trying to branch out this week with new breakfast options. I had done well so far, and had even made a yogurt parfait last night to have as breakfast today, but then I went back and made it into overnight oats like 20 minutes later!! The addition of rolled oats, chia seeds, and sunbutter into my yogurt definitely made for one happy camper this morning!!

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Seriously..I think I have a problem! I just can’t seem to get enough of this beauty of a breakfast!!!

Snack was an apple and some blueberry green tea…

week 3 thursday snack

side note..this apple was ginormous!! Like bigger than a softball!! My little brother knows my love of apples and last night he came home from the store with my mom and was bursting with excitement to show me these HUGE apples he got for us!! haha it is moments like that that seriously make me love that kid!

week 3 thursday tea

And last but not least..even though my legs were a burnin’ I was able to do some elliptical and arm work this morning which ended up looking something like this…

march 21 workout

Okie dokes, well I am off to lunch now! I will post my Thursday “Things to Make Ya’ll Smile” post later!! Enjoy your afternoons everybody 🙂

Staying On Track the Healthy Way

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Hey everybody! So, today has been a good day so far and I wanted to write a little about my journey trying to regain my identity during my recovery from my eating disorder. But first let me fill you in on my workout/dinner/& breakfast!

Workout last night went better than expected! I was feeling kind of crumby as I posted yesterday, but then I had a bagel think & cream cheese, lots of water, and got ready for a hard workout! When I got to the gym I was able to do my 50 min. workout, even going harder than I had planned at some points! I also did my ab routine and saved the squats for today because I was getting tired at that point. I typically get bored at the gym after like an hour, but can make myself stay for like an hour and fifteen or twenty minutes but that’s tops!

week 3 monday workout

After the gym I showered and then prepared myself a super yummy quinoa caprese bowl! I basically took some leftover cooked quinoa and added in fresh mozzarella, tomatoes, basil, and balsamic, mixing everything together for a super yummy dish!

I also snacked on some dark chocolate covered power berries from Trader Joes and some peanut butter/berries while preparing my lunch for today!

Breakfast this morning was a Special K Yogurt Parfait…

week 3 tuesday breakfast

Which was a contained of Trader Joe’s Mango flavored greek yogurt, topped with a scoop of Fage 0% Plain greek yogurt, blueberries, raspberries, blackberries, and some Vanilla Almond Special K cereal for some crunch! I have been trying to branch out and try some different breakfast options, because for the past few weeks I have been all about overnight oats!! haha anyways tomorrow I am thinking of trying out a bagel or oatmeal, so we will see if I can come up with a new fave breakfast option! If anyone has suggestions that are portable or easy to make using just a microwave and/or a toaster oven..let me know!!

Snack this morning was a banana, chocolate chip chewy bar, and vitamin water zero…just in case you were curious as to what my snacks are at work haha

Ok, now to the meat of this post…identity and how to be yourself in a world so full of judgment!

For me, during my years with an eating disorder I became a weird and different version of myself. Since I was consistently isolating myself, lying, and hiding away, I lost all sense of the person I was and the person I wanted to be. I let go of all of my morals and everything that was important to me. I was lying to my friends and family, so therefore they learned to not trust me and eventually even they did not care to be around me. I was hurting myself and then lying to make it seem like things were better than they really were. In all honesty I have never been more fragile, afraid, lonely, and confused as I was during those years.

However, as I have progressed in my recovery I have become more comfortable with the person that I am! I feel like I now know more about my positive and negative character traits and have tried to work on my negative ones to make myself a better person all around. I know I can be impatient, judgmental, a control freak, and sometimes insecure, but the more I try to stay aware of those characteristics, the more likely I am to catch myself when I start to display them.

I now try to be myself and have learnt that if others don’t like who I am, then tough luck for them! I am now more selective about who I am friends with because I have realized that there are only a few people who will really be there for me when the goings get tough! And I would way rather surround myself with people who make me feel good about myself, rather than have tons of people who don’t give a crap about me!

I have come to see that I want to be a person who lives a healthy life and is responsible and fun to be around. I try to help out others as much as I can and do kind things for no reason or without being asked. I try to keep a positive outlook on life and realize that no matter what happens there is always another day and another way to make things better!

If anyone is struggling with finding their identity or want to better themselves I would suggest making a list of qualities you admire in other people and then using that as a guide for yourself. But also remember that you are who you are and sometimes you have to find ways to make your personality work for you. Never be afraid to be who you are because the people who don’t like you are better off not in your life anyways!!

In conclusion, take a second to think about this quote…it really helps me in times when I am feeling down…

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Enjoy and I will be back later with lunch and today’s workout agenda 🙂

sore knees & flapjacks.

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Why hello there! Can’t you tell that I am just so stoked to be at work today! haha at least it is Thursday, so that means the weekend is quickly approaching 🙂 yay!!

Anyways, yesterday afternoon I posted my treadmill workout that I was going to do at the gym…however I had some unforeseen problemos aka my knees felt like they were going to give out after approximately 35 minutes of hill work and so I ended up doing a light jog and then calling it quits so I could go stretch after 43 minutes! Not the workout I had intended, but I know that it is important to listen to my body and what it is telling me and last night it was telling me to take it easy!!! I actually did some really good stretching to loosen up and then added some planks and about 10 minutes of arm machines before heading home for dinner!

And dinner just happened to be my favorite food in the whole world…PANCAKES!!!

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These pancakes are actually pretty healthy and easy to make..all I did was mash up 1 banana and then add 1 egg, a spalsh of vanilla extract, a handfull of mini chocolate chips, & a dash of cinnamon. Once I had my pancake mix ready to go I heated up a pan, sprayed it with some cooking spray and spooned out my mixture into 3 medium size pancakes. I let each side cook for about 5 minutes and then topped with some syrup/nutella/& fresh fruit! It was super yummy and quick to whip up!!

Then, this morning began with a 45 min. elliptical workout, which i will post later & some abs! Breakfast was a handful of granola, some grapes, a nonfat latte, and overnight oats…

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I simply made my original overnight oat recipe and topped with dried cherries, salted almonds, & some raspberries…yumalicious!! Once again my overnight oats did not disappoint and my tummy is definitely full and satisfied this morning!

Well, hope everyone enjoys their morning and I will be back later to post some of my healthy and unhealthy eating habits…ttyl!